Pillars

by Allison Crowe

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Celebrate today and e’er after with Allison Crowe and Band. Here’s Allison, Sarah White, Dave Baird & Keelan Purchase with music from “Pillars” – released today along with its sister, “Six More Songs”.

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released May 1, 2020

Allison Crowe (vocals, piano, cello, guitar, fiddle, Seaboard and more);
Sarah Melanie White (mandolin, bouzouki, vocals+);
Dave Baird (bass); &
Keelan Purchase (accordion, guitar, harmonica, vocals).

Allison Crowe: Composer & Co-Producer
Adam Thistle: Recording/Mixing Engineer & Co-Producer

Billie Woods Photography
Mind Palace Design

Visit us @ allisoncroweband.com

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Track Name: Verses / Morrison's Jig
Verses

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

All the verses I know
Are song without a chorus
All the air I breathe
Is slow

All these pages I’ve seen
They got nowhere to turn
The lake has run dry, try
and there you are

Ah, ah...

All these lies you’ve told
They come without a price
You’re not forgiven, it doesn’t matter
I didn’t have to think twice

All the darkness I’ve seen
I send over to yours
I’ll never understand
I’ve tried to hold you til you speak

And the waves go by, and eyes are sore
And I want it all, don’t ask for more
And the world is broken, out of
all I’ve seen
You’re the only one who’ll ask for me

And I know
And I know
I know

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Morrison's Jig - Traditional
Track Name: Wildflowers
Wildflowers

Composed by Dolly Parton
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

The hills were alive with wildflowers and I
Was as wild, even wilder than they
For at least I could run
They just died in the sun
And I refused to just wither in place

Just a wild mountain rose
Needing freedom to grow
So I ran fearing not where I'd go
When a flower grows wild
It can always survive
Wildflowers don't care where they grow

And the flowers I knew
In the fields where I grew
Were content to be lost in the crowd
They were commonly close
And I had no room to grow
And I wanted so much to branch out

So I uprooted myself from my home ground and left
Took my dreams and I took to the road
When a flower grows wild
It can always survive
Wildflowers don't care where they grow

I grew up fast and wild
And it never felt right
In a garden so different from me
I just never belonged
I just longed to be gone
So the garden one day set me free

I hitched a ride with the wind
And since he was my friend
I just let him decide where I'd go
When a flower grows wild
It can always survive
Wildflowers don't care where they grow

Just a wild rambling rose seeking mysteries untold
No regret for the path that I chose
When a flower grows wild
It can always survive
Wildflowers don't care where they grow

When a flower grows wild
It can always survive
Wildflowers don't care where they grow
Track Name: All Your Favorite Bands (feat. Sarah Melanie White)
All Your Favorite Bands

Composed by Taylor Goldsmith & Jonathan Fritz
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band feat. Sarah Melanie White

Late night drives and hot French fries
And friends around the country
From Charlottesville to good old Santa Fe
When I think of you, you still got on
That hat that says “let's party”
I hope that thing is never thrown away

I hope that life without a chaperone
Is what you thought it'd be
I hope your brother's El Camino runs forever
I hope the world sees the same person
That you've always been to me
And may all your favorite bands stay together

Now I'm just waking up
And I'm not thinking clearly so don't quote me
With one eye open I'm writing you this song
Ain't it funny how some people pop into your head so easily
I haven't seen you in there for so long

I hope that life without a chaperone
Is what you thought it'd be
I hope your brother's El Camino runs forever
I hope the world sees the same person
That you’ve always been to me
And may all your favorite bands stay together

I hope that life without a chaperone
Is what you thought it'd be
I hope your brother's El Camino runs forever
I hope the world sees the same person
That you’ve always been to me
And may all your favorite bands stay together

And may all your favorite bands stay together
Track Name: At Seventeen
At Seventeen

Composed by Janis Ian
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

I learned the truth at seventeen
That love was meant for beauty queens
And high school girls with clear skinned smiles
Who married young and then retired

The valentines I never knew
The Friday night charades of youth
Were spent on one more beautiful
At seventeen I learned the truth

And those of us with ravaged faces
Lacking in the social graces
Desperately remained at home
Inventing lovers on the phone

Who called to say "Come dance with me"
And murmured vague obscenities
It isn't all it seems
At seventeen

A brown-eyed girl in hand-me-downs
Whose name I never could pronounce
Said, "Pity, please, the ones who serve
They only get what they deserve"

And the rich-relationed hometown queen
Who marries into what she needs
With a guarantee of company
And haven for the elderly

Remember those who win the game
They lose the love they sought to gain
In debentures of quality
And dubious integrity

Their small-town eyes will gape at you
In dull surprise when payment due
Exceeds accounts received
At seventeen

To those of us who knew the pain
Of Valentines that never came
And those whose names were never called
When choosing sides at basketball

It was long ago and far away
The world was younger than today
When dreams were all they gave for free
To ugly duckling girls like me

We all play the game, and when we dare
To cheat ourselves at solitaire
Inventing lovers on the phone
Repenting other lives unknown

They call and say, "Come dance with me"
And murmur vague obscenities
At ugly girls like me
At seventeen
Track Name: But, Still
But, Still

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

The air is still... but still.
Why are we suffering?
I am not one to not hold back
So I’ll just sit here
Thinking and thinking and thinking
All the air is moving
I see you in the dust
Is that your skin
Or just a memory
I am invoking all of the powers
I have , but there’s not much left
To cry out
To lie awake at night
There isn’t much power left in my dreams
In my dreams
In my dreams
In my dreams
.
There’s a chill , but still
Everything moves around
me when I’m frozen
And I wring my hands
And I hold my breath
With my hands on my stomach
I wish
I wish I had more left
And all of these voices
That I hear
Are gone so far away
From there
And I don’t know where he is
So I can’t say
I can’t say
I can’t say
Even if I
Even if I
Try
I can’t say
I can’t say
Cause we all live
And we’re all gonna die
And I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry for that.
Track Name: Hours
Hours

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

All this shifting of the hours
Goes towards the light
And the presence of this emptiness
Gives up without a fight

And the movement of the river
Goes towards the sea
And this absence of fulfillment
Presents itself to me

Chorus
Don’t be scared
It’s just the wind
And the minutes
Don’t know where to begin
And we are getting older
It’s not amounting to anything
to anything, so just let go

Oh, these pockets of the sky
They’re turbulent at best
We laugh when we are frightened
Not at our own behest

And the chattering of spirits
Keeps me wide awake
Now this isn’’t something stolen
But it’s something I can’t take

Chorus
Don’t be scared
It’s just the wind
And the minutes
Don’t know where to begin
And we are getting older
And it’s not amounting to anything
to anything, so just let go

Now the sound of screaming beauties
They cry themselves to sleep
Whatever I’ve held on to
Is never nothing I can keep

I lay my hands across the stone
And hold back my breath
I haven’t gone but I am fading
Lord, I scare myself to death

Don’t be scared
It’s just the wind
And the minutes
Don’t know where to begin
And we are getting older
It’s not amounting - it all adds up
And who is counting

Don’t be scared
It’s just the wind
And the minutes
Don’t know where to begin
And we are getting older
And it’s not amounting to anything
to anything, so just let go

Oh, the shifting of the hours
Goes towards the light
And the presence of this emptiness
Gives up without a fight
Track Name: Hopeless
Hopeless

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

Am I supposed... to breathe... the air
I take pride... and I try
And I hold… on to my hair

It’s always too broken
To know..., lying awake
I am cold –
And I need you now… as you are
and I will breathe when I can

I am hopeless
I am hopeless
I am hopeless
I am hopeless

I try too hard, I hold too close,
I leap when I should walk
I should stay… but I move.

Where are you… I need... somewhere
I have cried... and I’ve tried
And I’ve told… but it goes nowhere

It’s always too quiet
To hear… I am insane…
I am frozen –
And I need you now, as you are
and I will bleed where I stand

I am hopeless
I am hopeless
I am hopeless
I am hopeless

I try too hard, I hold too close,
And I leap when I should walk
I should stay… but I move

But I move
Track Name: Julianna
Julianna

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

It is far too much
Too much she cannot hold
She expects the worst
She receives the cold

It wasn't what she hoped, or believed
But, it is what she’s got to get her through
And another day just goes by for you

Julianna
Julianna
She tried too hard to breathe under the water
But it kept her down
Julianna

If you watch her walk away
Don’t you dare complain
She tried to give you fire
But you drowned her in the rain

Now, it isn’t what you hoped, or expected
And you feel yourself as slighted, and rejected
But still another day just goes by for you

Julianna
Julianna
She tried too hard to breathe under the water
But he kept her down
Julianna

It will not be that much
Not much for you to hold
But the little she can give
It’s worth its weight in gold

It isn’t what she needs, or deserves
But you have depleted her reserves
And another day will go by, go by for you

Julianna
Julianna
She tried too hard to breathe under the water
But he kept her down, it kept her down
Julianna

Julianna
Track Name: Pillars
Pillars

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

After all of the storms
Are come and gone
I can’t really be sure
This is my pillar to stand on

I’ve watched it crumble and fall
Right at your feet, and
There aren’t enough turns in the world
To force these paths to meet

Chorus:

I can’t breathe
So open a window
It’s freezing
So close it again
You say: It hurts when I do this
I say: So why do that
This silence is killing me
But it isn’t as hard as the fall

So what do I do?
I guess I just wait
‘cause trying to force time
Is just tempting fate

I am reasonably sure
There’s no easy solution
And I have never been good
At conflict resolution

Chorus:

And I can’t breathe
So open a window
It’s freezing
So close it again
You say: It hurts when I do this
I say: So why do that
This silence is killing me
But it isn’t as hard as the fall

There’s a stillness here now
A curious sort of quiet
And my only strength left
Is the comfort in leading the riot

And I can’t make you believe
In God I haven’t respected
Not until my own certainty
In the fates has resurrected

Chorus:

And I can’t breathe
So open a window
It’s freezing
So close it again
You say: It hurts when I do this
So why in the Hell would you do that
This silence is killing me
But it isn’t as hard as the fall

My pillar to stand on
And I don’t know, I don’t know…
This is my pillar to stand on…

This is my pillar to stand on
Track Name: (Through These) Heavy Graces
(Through These) Heavy Graces

Composed by Allison Crowe
As performed by Allison Crowe and Band

I’m not better than anyone
and you’re no better than me
So here we stand at the artifice
face-to-face in symmetry

I laugh when I’m afraid
and I cry when taken by peace
I shake through new beginnings
and I scream when I release

I want to breathe
but I can’t catch breath
I want to live
but I can’t shake death

And bathe in light
in the darkest of places
Tread lightly
through these heavy graces

Guilt crawls through my skin
and exits every pore
I exist a floating creature
of heart and bones, so sore

But you stand firm in faith
for your emptiness of soul
And I’m left here with the shaking
when laughter takes its toll

I want to breathe
But I can’t catch breath
I want to live
but I can’t shake death

Bathe in light
in the darkest of places
Tread lightly
through these heavy graces

And shadow takes his cover
It’s piercing with his eyes
No moral lesson learned here
No clever compromise

Just feign of retribution
and tears swallowed ill at ease
To wash the scars from inside
this doubt will not appease

I want to breathe
but I can’t catch breath
I want to live
but I can’t shake death

And bathe in light
in the darkest of places
Tread lightly
through these heavy graces

I want to breathe
but I can’t catch breath
I want to live
but I can’t shake death

And bathe in light
in the darkest of places
Tread lightly
through these heavy graces

Tread lightly
through these heavy graces

Tread lightly
through these, these heavy graces
Track Name: Black Velvet Waltz / Linkers' Lament / The Merry Blacksmith
Instrumental Tunes:

Black Velvet Waltz - Traditional
Linkers' Lament - Composed by Allison Crowe
The Merry Blacksmith - Traditional